Amazing

So I tried and tried to leave all this stuff in God's hands and yet I can't stop from fretting and worrying. I told Him I'd leave until the end of this month before I even thought about it and now all of a sudden things are popping up.

Peggie offered me a rent at $950 including heat. Stove is electric so electric would be for stove and lights and stuff. Hot water is gas. She said just first and last months rent and I told her I can't do that since I have no money but she said we'd work it out. I'm very tempted. I told her I'd let her know in a few days. If this is the plan for me then God will let me know. I asked Carol when they're leaving and she said on or before August 1st.

Anthony filled out everything and had me email it to the oil company so if he gets that job, he'll be gone too. I will have to worry about my Pino though. What will happen to him? I'm sure God has a plan for that too. I sure hope so.

I want to talk to Anthony about this but I think it's the thing I'll have to do.

Just talked to Anthony. He's counting so much on getting the job. I'm praying he does. He is supposed to be paying $1,350 where he is. If I go there I certainly can't pay that much but if it would be ok, I could pay the $900 there and even if he doesn't get the job, he'd have his place. Just with me in it. I don't know. He said he's calling the lady tomorrow. I hope so much he gets it. He needs this so badly. And he told me if he gets it I'd have no worries anymore because he owes me a bunch of money.

He doesn't know that my worries are mostly for him and his sister and their relationship and their health and well being. God takes care of me even though I worry about myself too. I sound like a holy roller or something today but it's not that. God is so much a part of my life that I don't have to talk about Him constantly like the crazies do. He just Is. But I can't do this or write about this without mentioning Him, ya know?