December 31, 2019

We should all be together tonight, at Sheila's house, bringing in a new year. Those days are so long gone. Arlene just posted that it was 45 years ago tonight that she and Tom first started dating. Me and Allen should still be together 49 years later. I hate being melancholy. I hate hurting. I hate that it still hurts after all these years. I hate that I was dumped from the family that said I'd always be part of them.

I do thank God for my real family. My kids, grandkids, son-in-law, and the Trombetto family.

This year has been insane but great - even though some deaths and sadness occurred and I lost a friend. Sandy was never a friend. And Jack, another one who was never a friend, died too. And two online real friend deaths - Ken Deel and Kevin Malek. But I made new friends - Deb and Arne Johnson, Jimmy Petotino, and had so many good times with Margaret. And am writing to Paul in prison and seeing him when we can get up there.

I know that 2020 is going to be amazing. And God will bless me even more.

December 27, 2019

So wow! I don't think I listed any books I've read this year - not that I've read many.

I went to Florida for Allena's 9th birthday. That was fun and I miss them so much. She got a cell phone for Christmas and has been texting me almost daily - she hasn't texted today yet. LOL!!

Sam and I go back and forth. I love her so much. Suga has more tumors but they are trying to treat them with antibiotics.

Can't remember what else has gone on......

October 20, 2019

Need to post more so I don't forget stuff.

Suga had his back left leg amputated last week. He's now doing really good but still doesn't move around very well.

Sam has been totally a bitch to me for no reason at all. Four years and I can't deal with it. I try to pretend I live alone because it hurts so much and I barely see her even when she's home.

Tonight she told me she was going to sleep at her mom's and I realized court must be tomorrow. So I asked her and it is. I don't know how long the trial will be and I see on the ct gov site that he has pled not guilty to mostly everything. I hope and pray that they find him guilty 100%. I also pray that they don't try to mess up the witnesses. He is even up for trying to strangle Karla. And he pled not guilty. I will ask Big Mike to tell me all the details since I won't get shit out of anyone else. He will be there. I would have taken the time off to go if I had known. But like I said, Sam doesn't talk to me. None of my so-called family does. It's like I don't exist.

Rant over

September 28, 2019

Yesterday - Big E. We stayed late to watch the Royal Canadian Mounted Police do their ride. Awesome!

Today was Ansonia Harvest Festival. Dan Bosques said he'd love for me to go back to helping out at the Historical Society.

Tonight -- decided to do a search on what I saw at the Shakespeare Theatre in Stratford, CT and who played.

So in 1967 we saw A Midsummer's Night Dream, with Cyril Richard. Probably saw Much Ado About Nothing in 1968 but I don't know who was in it. Then we went to see The Crucible in 1976 with Tovah Feldshuh and Don Murray. How sad that they destroyed the place. :(

september 24, 2019

Jack Thigpen died last week. Not apparently sick. Even though he had stopped talking to me because I am predjudice and an alcoholic, I still loved him. :(

And they are talking impeachment of my president, Donald Trump.

And Suga, our cat, will be getting his leg amputated on October 14.

So much stuff to say and yet I don't. :(

Don't know if I can get it here but I should save our last conversation:
I guess I can't but it's in my fb private messages. It was bad. :(

September 9, 2019

Gary came to work today to get his key. He's teaching meditation or something like that. I asked him how Edmond is doing. They have stopped treatment and are giving him 1-3 months. At the moment he is doing well. Happy to be home and getting out a little.
God help us all.

I did go see Of Monsters and Men with Margaret on Saturday. We also went to the Mohegan's graves, including Uncas, and we checked out a few old graveyards or cemeteries. Life is WAY too short and I want to do and see and learn all I can.

September 4, 2019

Buon Onomastico to me. Today is the Feast of Santa Rosalia.

My baby boy turned 40 on Sunday. I so wish his father were here to celebrate with us. That hole is still not filled when it comes to my kids. He should be here for their mile stones.

Margaret and I have been going here and there. I visited Paul, in prison, again. I don't even know if I wrote about that. This weekend we went to the CT Ren Faire in Lebanon and then to the Lebanon Historical Society. They gave us a map of cemeteries and we visited one. Amazing to be so near Revolutionary War heroes.

Sam's cat, Suga, has to have his leg amputated. I love that cat. It's going to cost us $1,250 but I have no clue if I can come up with that. The surgeon wants to do it on the 16th but I won't have money until the 18th. The vet's office is trying to see if he will do the surgery and let me pay two days later.

Little Lou is walking now, sort of . She's a year old and Allena will be 9 and I miss all of them so much. I can't go down there this year and they can't come up. :(

We went to the dinner and tour at Twisted Vine last Thursday. I'm making more new friends in the paranormal world. Nick Grossman from Ghost Storm is starting a paranormal social meet up for like minded people. He invited me and Margaret. We will meet at the Valley Diner on October 7.

That's it for now.

August 12, 2019

Angelina is dead. Hit by a truck and died in the hospital. That is all we (me, Anna, Lisa, Rita) know. We don't know what to do. Rita and I feel we should go over there but when I went by there were no vehicles. I got to see her at St. Mary's festival and we took a selfie and I'm so glad we did that.

Did I write that John Vaccaro died a week and a half ago? Who will be the next? From Daddy's side of the family. It could be me, I guess.

This is so horrible. Angelina was going to be something like 85. And yesterday was the feast of St. Philomena - her mother.

Samantha is more and more a downer every day. She won't go back to therapy and I think the few times she went helped her.

I am so I don't know what I am. I can't believe Angelina is gone. I can't.

July 29, 2019

Just finished reading Burned, by Karen Marie Moning. Will be continuing Triple Witch, be Sarah Graves. I stopped in the middle to read something else. Time to finish it.

I've been pretty busy all summer. I can't believe Little Lou will be a year old next week and I've only seen her once. Also I probably didnt mention that all Lou's kids have unfriended me because I couldn't deal with their disrespecting police officers nonstop. Told them in was glad their mother was dead because shed be seriously ashamed of them. They deleted me before I got the chance to say the same about Allen. I am so glad neither of them is alive to know this.

Have been taking the associates course with Missy - coworker and friend. So far I am doing good. My last three classes were A's and the two before that were B's.

July 2, 2019

I can't believe I haven't written since December. Well not so much that, but that I haven't listed any books that I've read. I forgot what I've read in six months!!

So I just finished Iced, by Karen Marie Moning. Don't have time to set up a list so will hopefully just keep writing in here. Iced is book six in the series.

So much more to write about but I'm in work and have no time right now.