Tired

Back to work today and to the grocery store for more stuff -- I AM a grocery store addict. I wonder if there's a 12 step program for people like me? *sigh* I am sooooooo tired. Going to bed as soon as the clock strikes 10.

Long day

I ended up not going to the Mass or funeral. Carol never got up in time and I wasn't going to drive an egged Jeep with an almost flat tire. I ended up going to get air in my tire and getting the Jeep washed. Then I went to Stop and Shop, Shop Rite and Target and by the time I was done with that I had to meet Yvonne at the lodge. We ended up having to redo the newsletter before printing out the rest. Then collating, folding and stapling. Then the stapler broke so we had to tape. Oh yeah, then stamp. Got home close to 7 p.m. Geez!

Wake

Went to the wake this afternoon. Uncle Pasquale looked horrible. They didn't do a good make up job -- his face was blue. i've never seen anything like it. Sat with "old" Aunt Karen and cousins Richard and Claudia for an hour or so. Saw some of the Italian side and then we left. We won't go to the funeral home tomorrow. We'll go to the Mass and then the cemetary. Yvonne and I worked on the bulletin today and got more than half done. We'll finish it off tomorrow.

Nothing day

Other than going to the post office and running to Stop and Shop, I did nothing but read and nap all day. I also have a problem with my taste -- nothing tastes right since before Thanksgiving. It's like the middle of my tongue is coated with a light metallic-ish taste or something. I can't even describe it. But it's horrible because nothing at all tastes right or everything, even savory stuff tastes sweet. I hope it's going to go away. Other than that I'm perfectly fine.

Off work until Tuesday

The funeral is Monday and this one is open to the public so we can go.

Sad day

Went to work, of course. I put in for Monday off for the funeral. But all day I was so sad ... but really it was because I couldn't stop thinking about all the wonderful days in the past when my family was whole and all the people I loved, loved me back and were alive and well. So they should have made me happy since they were happy memories. I guess the knowledge that I won't see them again until I die myself is reason to be sad. I'm looking forward to when the sadness wears off and the memories will meka me happy again. 

Goodbye Uncle Pasquale

Angelina just called. He died this morning. He's the last of our family (except cousins, of course) from both of our parents. He helped me understand long division when I couldn't 'get' it. He brought me a chocolate egg from the ship when he came to America. It has a little model of the ship in it. I was so little. He let me blow and blow and blow on his trumpet and he used to laugh so hard because I couldn't get it to make any noise. when I finally got it, he was thrilled. I will miss him even though we've not really seen each other except for running into him here or there, since everyone else passed away. I always knew he was around. :(

Cairns

As it's drawing near to auditions and stuff for faire, my curiosity is working overtime again. Every year at our faire, and only our faire as far as I've noticed, there are little cairns built. At the old site they were along the side of the path. At the new site, I can't remember, but I'm sure they're there somewhere. So I'm needing to know why. I don't want to ask any of the crew because I don't want them to think I'm stupid. LOL!!! Some research though has brought me to some interesting things in CT:

http://articles.courant.com/2010-12-20/news/hc-hammonasset-line-solstice-1215-20101220_1_solstice-stone-walls-prayer-seats



And as for what I did today. More nothing. More dishes. I can't figure out why I'm the only one, in a houseful of adults, who understands that you don't leave the dishes in the sink and use new ones until everything is dirty. My God! I wash up as I go along. Makes life much easier. Or it does when I'm the one cooking. But I was everything after dinner, I wash again when I get home from work. I wash as they're cooking and I wash again and again and again. I try to look at it as a blessing -- I can do this for the people I love. But at times I feel like I'm being treated like the slave -- we don't need to clean up, she'll do it. :(

Worked

Back to the normal routine except at home -- Carol's Anthony started school tonight. Hoping he's loving it! Sam made out great with her wisdom teeth surgery and that's about it.

Started a fairy

I started and knit a few rows on the fairy from Spud and Chloe. Mostly I just watched tv and read and sat here at the computer. I did run down to Stop and Shop and picked up a few things but that's about it. Sam is having her wisdom teeth removed tomorrow so she's going to stay here for a few days.

Consider this Jan. 21

I totally forgot to write anything last night. *sigh* Well it snowed most of the day and I stayed in except for bringing the dogs out. Read Facebook alot, read my book, watched Netflix and knitted and crocheted. Made an entire penguin for Bayba and picked out yarn from my stash for some small-size projects. I also made this awesome hot mushroom dip. YUM!! That's about it. It was a lazy day and I loved it!

Snow and Sam and stuff

First Sam -- She texted Carol and said she'll be going to live with Karla for awhile, maybe longer. Apparently her mom and step-dad are in financial difficulties and have to go live with Sam's other grandmother. Sam wants to stay in her school -- who can blame her. So she'll stay behind. I so wish we had our own, bigger place so she could come live with us. She'd still want to stay in her school so that would mean somehow getting her there and back everyday, but we would manage. But obviously we don't have to even think of it right now. Snow -- prediction is that it will start after midnight and go all night and all day tomorrow. We'll see ... I AM prepared -- have plenty of chocolate, coffee and salty snacks so there's nor reason to go out if we get the storm. Stuff -- finished Cloe's other leg and put her aside for now. I really hate the putting together part. Started another penguin because Carol promised Michelle I'd make one for Bayba. That will work up very quickly and the putting it together part is minimal. That's it. Off to bed now.

And it's snowing

A gift to us from Dr. Mel, perahaps? Oh how he loved the snow! I love it too but I'm hoping the roads are nice and clear for work tomorrow. To and from - that's all I need. Then if it wants to snow after midnight tomorrow night, like the boss says it will, go for it. Supposed to snow all day Saturday. Again -- I love, love, LOVE it and will be the first to admit it, but I'm petrified of driving anywhere but around town in it. *sigh* So tonight I finished one of Chloe's legs and will probably finish the other by the end of the evening. If not, I'll finish tomorrow. Not sure when I'll put her together but at least the parts will be done!

Dr. Mel

Passed away today. I really loved his weather segments on tv. In spite of horrendous pain from his cancer all these years, the man was never without a smile. I'm so glad that Sandy, Lorraine and I had the chance to go see him at Written Word in Shelton a few years ago. Rest in peace, Dr. Mel. Nothing about Uncle Pasquale. No news is definitely good news. Came home from work today after stopping really quick at Stop and Shop and have been in all evening. It's bitter cold out there tonight. Too cold even for this winter lover! I finished Chloe's other arm and started a leg but I'm too lazy to do too much. :)

I hate cancer

And now it's Uncle Pasquale. I KNOW he's old and I KNOW he suffers from dimentia but he's one of the kindest people ever to be in my life. And he's suffered his own trials, the latest being his son-in-law dying of pancreatic cancer. And now HE has the same cancer. He was diagnosed on January 2. I was called today by my cousins. He's not doing well at all. I hate cancer. :( Oh, Carol's Anthony just enrolled in college for mechanics. He starts next week and will go for 4 nights a week for 18 months.

Back to work tomorrow

Did nothing again today. I love being home but I do love my job. Back to work tomorrow for four days. Trying to remember what I did do today -- just went and got gas and that's it. Oh and I made a really great pork roast but other than that, nothing! :) And I'm editing this to add that it's snowing. First snow of the winter (we can't count October)! Now I just have to pray that the roads are cleared enough for me to get to and from work because I'm a chicken shit drive in the snow. And I have 4-wheel drive. *sigh* I LOVE snow. I HATE driving in it.

Another nothing day

Except to let the dogs out, I haven't been out of the house. Love it! Tomorrow I'll try to make an early morning run to the cigar store to see if they have coupon fliers. Darmish keeps messing me up giving me all different stories so half the time I waste my time going there. Also need to get gas for the next two weeks. I did toss another small pile of papers and finished one arm and started the other on Chloe. That's about it.

What I did today

I can't remember -- that's how uninspiring it was. But I guess I accomplished a few things. The best is going to Big Lots and buying a big old dog pillow for the Pumpkin. She loves to go into the space between the couch and the wall where we put the playpen when it's not being used. It's like a little room to her, I guess. So I got this dog pillow and we put it there and she dove right on it. She actually loves it. So we can put some of her toys there and her big cat pillow that her great grandmother made for her and maybe a little blanket and she can have her own little space. She can even see the tv from there if she wants and we won't have to worry that she can fall on the wood part of the floor and get hurt. I toss a little pile of clutter from my room and we hooked up my wii in here so I can watch netflix when I want. Now all we have to do is get it connected again to the wifi and well do that over the weekend. I have Monday off so I'm just planning on chilling for two more days. :)

Almost forgot to write

Although there's nothing really to write about. I'm grateful for my life and my family and I want to stay positive. Money is really, really tight and living quarters are tight also. But God provides and we'll figure it out somehow.

A quiet evening

Nothing happening, which can be a good thing. It was a quiet and uneventful day and evening. Although I did have a huge mac and cheese craving so I stopped to pick up cheese after work and made it when I got home. YUM! Just sat and watched tv after that. Today would have been Allen's 58th birthday. I wouldn't have been able to call and wish him a happy birthday -- God forbid! I wish he were alive. Even though I couldn't have a friendship with him, I still miss him so very much. He would have been so proud of our Sammy and how he would have loved the Pumpkin. I can't believe she's 14 months today. The time is flying.

More...

First, Lou is now a first-time grandma -- she's so happy! The kids had a little girl this afternoon. A new life begins. But ... Lou's cancer has spread. Her lung cancer has grown but she said not too much. Enough to be putting pressure on her aorta, causing her arms and chest and face to swell a lot. Enough to put pressure on lymph nodes and cause her to be in pain. Enough for her to be starting radiation tomorrow. God be with her.

Crafty stuff -- Oh brother

Just what I need -- another hobby, or the resurrection of an old one. The quilting thing the other night got me want to to do that again. First, of course, I'll have to buy an inexpensive sewing machine and then dig out whatever quilting stuff I have on hand. In the meantime, I found some links ... of course I did ... and I'll drop them here for safekeeping. And just what I needed ... TARDIS fabric ... *sigh* And this, while not quilting, has possibilities: And a knitted TARDIS Iphone cozy: And a TARDIS ornament -- scroll down for the TARDIS part: Then there's the Crafty TARDIS site at LJ (I went through 100 or so posts as of 1/11/12): This NOT good: Enough!!!!!!

Remember

I was remembering today how I was blessed to have gone to a Pro Life Mass at the cathedral in Hartford, officiated by Cardinal John O'Connor of New York many years ago. I went with a young very pregnant girl and while we were standing outside after the Mass, he walked by and saw that she was pregnant and blessed the baby. How awesome that was! And then last year when Sandy and I went to St. Patrick's Cathedral in NYC and the tomb entrance was open and visitors were allowed to visit the tombs and we got to go to his tomb. That was awesome also. Went to the coupon thing tonight. I actually learned a few things. Hopefully I'll remember to continue going on Tuesdays when I'm free.

Missed another day already!

Wow -- I missed writing anything last night. I guess there's nothing much to write anyway. I have a feeling I'll be getting (back) into quilting. I went to a talk by a lady at the library and there might be enough interest to do a class. If not, she's in Shelton and teaches out of her house PLUS The Yankee Quilter just moved to Seymour. I'm feeling the itch! Went to work today and then the talk tonight and I'm wiped. I'm going to watch some tv and force myself to stay awake until after 10. I woke up around 3:30 this morning and never fell back to sleep so I'm totally exhausted. Tomorrow night is the start of a coupon club at the library. I'm going to go -- should be fun!

Hopefully better

I went back to sleep after waking up for half an hour or so this morning, and writing that post. Just woke up now because my sister called and woke me up. I'm hurting but I'm hoping I feel better. And I just went to the post office. When I got out in front of the house I saw that someone had done a hit and run and smashed my driver's side mirror last night. There was a bunch of glass all over the place so they got it much worse than me. Jerks! And so I do feel alive today -- won't do the historial society tomorrow. I just need to recoup myself. I did think of a future topic for memory's sake: I never had to make lunch. Really!

Missed a day already

I wonder if this qualifies as the sixth day since it's 6:13 a.m. and day 7 hasn't started yet? I doubt it so I just post twice today. *sigh* Can't beleive I screwed up already. But to give me credit, I HAVE been sick. I just woke up a little while ago feeling human again. I'm just so very grateful to God that I didn't get the other virus going around -- the explosive kind. This cold/flu think wiped me out but the worst of it is the coughing and the painful muscles from coughing too much.

Sick

I have a horrible cold -- I guess the beginning is the worst. I was sneezing and feeling crappy at work yesterday and coughing and sneezing all last night. Now, on top of all that, my head is pounding and nothing seems to help. I stayed home today and slept on and off all day when I wasn't coughing. I have a feeling tomorrow will be more of the same. Yuck! I coudn't even go to the wake because I'm feeling so crappy and didn't want to share the germs. :(

Wednesday

Nothing much for today. Brought Roseann to pick up her car. I asked her mechanic to see if I needed coolant since Milo is telling me that the coolant is low. Usually it just says 'coolant sensor bad' and that's normal and ok. But the guy said I was fine. Yeah. Got to and from work today which is a good thing. Just need to keep that up until tax returns come in. Donna picked me up and we went to Cosmic. It was just her and I and Greg and another member, Missy, so we just tossed around future ideas and just talked in general. It really was a nice night overall. I've picked up a cold somewhere along the line and hope it blows over fast. I can't kiss my Pumpkin!! She'll probably get it anyway since we're all so close and until today I've been holding her and kissing her daily. Ugh!!

Day Three

So I'm trying here! Milo, the Swamp Jeep didn't have it's battery/alternator issues today, thank God. I can only take it day by day. All I pray for is that he starts up in the morning, gets me to work, starts up after work, and gets me home. As soon as I get my tax refund, hopefully by the end of the month, $350 will right to Bryce for the computer thingy, or whatever ails Milo. Until then, I'll be having to pray mighty hard for him! NOT going to the lodge meeting tonight. Right now it's 24 degrees out and I really don't want to be out there. My room is 49 degrees and I turned the knob on the radiator so it's open and hopefully the next round of heat will leave some in here. I don't mind if it's down to 52 or so but under that isn't a good idea. Heat worked!

Wow!

Well this second day of the new year started off with a bang. Joyce's son, Dave, passed away -- lung cancer. Poor Joyce. This makes three of her children gone -- two of them in less than three year's time. Cancer is an ugly, ugly thing. :( Speaking of dying -- Denise found out her father died October 2010 -- is it wrong to be happy over someone's death? It means no more children being molested by him. No more fear that he'll go after his daughters, even in his 80s, and hunt them down and kill them. No more fear that he'll come looking for me to try and force me into telling him where they live. No more fear that my son will shoot a man, even if he's a monster. I'm sorry, Lord, but I'm happy the old bastard is dead!! I was supposed to meet up with Joann for lunch today but we decided on doing that on Saturday instead. I am so excited to be hanging with her again after all these years. What fun we used to have! She was my older sister, dear, dear friend. I've missed her. At some point I should probably write down the things I didn't write of 2011. I guess I'll put them here as I think of them or remember them. My Pino is getting old. He turned 13 in October. Ant says he won't live more than another year but I am hoping for much more than that. He's slowed down but he's in good health so there's no reason to think otherwise. Pumpkin has grown by leaps and bounds. Today she started saying bye bye and waving goodbye. She also popped her fifth tooth yesterday so more will be on the way. I'm grateful today for my family ... always. And I love this: Heavenly Father, walk through my house, and take away all worries and illness, and please watch over and heal my family and friends. Bring quiet where there is chaos, bring light where there is darkness and put love in our hearts. Help us to be more like YOU ♥ Amen.

2012

A clean slate. A new year. According to the Mayans, it's our last year. We'll see. I don't plan on going anywhere and I plan on this being a fantastic year. And all the years following it will be wonderful too. This year was pretty darned good. I got to have my Pumpkin here from the spring on. I missed them when they were out in Florida and was so happy to have them back. I watch her grow and learn. When they came home she was an infant and could only turn over. Now she's a toddler and doing all those amazing toddler things. She is full of joy and both her and Sam (I can't believe Sam will be 16 in February) are the lights of my life. Having both my kids together under one roof with me again is wonderful. My son, my daughter, my future son-in-law and my newest granddaugther. What more can I ask for? God has blessed me and I am happy and content. :)