History

Went to the library (met up with Laura, Joel and Antonio) to see the research head of the CT Historical Society speak. Very interesting! We want to do a road trip up there to their place!

And Rufio will be going in for neutering on Friday. Karla is going to come get him on Thursday night. I'll miss him!!!!!

Beautiful

I love this prayer. My friend Katherine Burgess posted it on her Facebook and I want to keep it where I can find it.

O Lord,
grant that I may meet the coming day in peace.
Help me in all things
to rely upon Thy Holy Will.
In every hour of the day,
reveal Thy will to me.
Bless my dealings with all who surround me.
Teach me to treat all that comes to me
throughout the day with peace of soul,
and with the firm conviction that Thy will governs all.
In all my deeds and words,
guide my thoughts and feelings.
In unforeseen events, let me not forget
that all are sent by Thee.
Teach me to act firmly and wisely,
without embittering and embarrassing others.
Give me the strength to bear the fatigue
of the coming day with all that it shall bring.
Direct my will.
Teach me to pray.
Pray Thou Thyself in me.
Amen.

Philaret of Moscow

Missed a few days

I forget to post when nothing is going on. Yesterday I went out on a usual Saturday with Sandy. We went to Outback and Walmart. Then I went to Peggie's for a cookout. Stayed a few hours and came home. Today I went back to Peggie's to help clean up and eat again. And that was my weekend.

How could I forgot to have mentioned that Sam and I are going to Comicon!! We're going on Thursday, October 10th (Daddy's birthday) and its a day when no one will be there but we're going. Next year we'll go on a better day!

Alderman meeting

Met Laura and Joel and Antonino at the meeting. Laura gave a little report on the commission and asked for permission for the haunted Derby tour and kid's fright fest and we got it.

I wish

If this could only be true:

You are a piece of the puzzle of someone else's life.
You may never know where you fit,
but others will fill the holes in their life with pieces of you.
--Bonnie Arbon

Stephen King

He has a sequel to The Shining out. That's the kind of King I love. I'll have to remember to put it on my to be read list at FictFact and Goodreads.

Cultural Commission meeting tonight. Then John Zaffis tomorrow night, Board of Aldermen on Thursday, MEATO on Friday and Peggie's on Saturday evening. YIKES! I am going to veg out all day on Sunday. I really am!

Library thing

Went to the library tonight - met up with Laura and Joel and Antonino from the Cultural Commission to see the CT Soul Seekers. They were pretty good but made us wonder a bit how real their stuff is.

A full day

I went to buy stuff for lunches and I did my laundry. Then I went to Peggie's for lunch and to see a movie. While we were outside, a young woman came out of her house with two little ones and called my name. It was Anna Brinkmann, Mariana's daughter. She lives right across the street from Peggie and Mariana lives next door. How wild is that?

Then we had a Cultural Commission meeting but what we did was pretty much clean most of the basement of the Art's Council studios. What a moldy mess!

All in all it was a really good day!

My day so far

Sandy went to the casino with her brother so I was free to putter around today. Rita got the bikes last night and there were a few bins -- not my memory stuff, of course. A little bit of Christmas stuff and some books. That was it. So I condensed that stuff this afternoon.

I got up early and went to the post office, Target, Big Y and Stop and Shop -- just got some odds and ends and Kayla's Mario Brothers for her Wii. I also went to My Sister's Place and got three pairs of slacks and a top for work for $14.00. Went to the consignment store in Seymour but they didn't have anything I could use. Went to Tea with Tracy's and got a tea for the swap and an apple torte and some clotted cream for me to snack on later. When I got back here I made a chicken salad from a rotisserie chicken and I put chopped Craisens in it -- delicious!

Now, unless Peggie calls to go to the movies, I'm settled for the rest of the afternoon and evening. She wanted to go to Newtown but is now cleaning her house so she'll call me around 5:30 to see.

And the rest...

Peggie and I went down the lodge and had a hot dog and then went to see the funniest movie I've seen in years and years -- The Heat with Melissa McCarthy (Hysterical!) and Sandra Bullock (always awesome). Then back to the Elks for a club soda and then I came home. We had a great time. Somehow I agreed to helping her move stuff around in her house tomorrow and then tomorrow night. Next weekend she's having her cookout and we're going to see The Conjuring. She invited me to go to Vermont for her time share week Thanksgiving week. I'm not sure I want to do that -- I'd like to spend the day with some of my family and then the next day is the tree lighting. Maybe I'll tell her I can't get off -- that other people are off that week.

A good day

Work was good - it usually is. I was awake at 5:30 this morning and am still not exhausted yet. Which is good.

Rita said Luisa called and bitched her out and wants the dryer out and she told her to talk to her son and hung up on her. I do not EVER want to see her or hear her again. I don't care what she has of mine. I can't believe still that she got rid of my clothes and memory boxes. Whatever!

Yvonne called me this morning because it's talk like a pirate day. LOL!! She's sounding so great!

Wow. Just wow.

First the locksmith at work tells me he met my late ex-husband's wife's son. Apparently Justin is going to school at SCSU and how that conversation came about, I can't even guess. Something about ren faires and the Valley and oh my God! Total WEIRDNESS!

Then I get home and Rita's all upset. She stopped to see Luisa today. Luisa got rid of all my stuff. Sold or gave away everything. I have no clothes for work for fall/winter. I have no memory boxes and no Christmas stuff -- all my Christmas memories and ornaments, etc. are gone. My bike with the tags still on it and Sam's bike. Everything. All of it. Except for the dryer. And she's saying that Anthony and Carol are pigs and she has to have the place fumigated, etc., etc., etc.

I'm only relieved that it's over and I never have to see her again. And I'm thinking I'll live in my car before I ever rent from someone again. I live with family or I live in my car. That's it.

And Rita talked to Luisa and to Freddy and I really don't want to see or talk to either of them. They had to call Pro Clean? Oh fucking well! I don't live in scum. My house was clean. They don't like it too bad. The only part that probably wasn't was under the stove because I forgot to get under there. I cleaned every frigging thing in that place except outside window sills. What the fuck does she expect. I really hope she had to spend ten times the security deposit because she's fucking nuts.

Guess I missed a day

Wow! Slacking again. But it would be the same thing over and over for the most part. My stuff is still at Luisa's. I still don't have the balls to go up there and still never want to see her again and Rita's still not going like she said she would and Tony's still being Tony.

Other than that, the new season's tv shows have started and I watched Bones and Sleepy Hollow last night
 I'm loving Sleepy Hollow right now. Dave Mouch will be a tour guide again this year for the Haunted Derby tour and I got Sam to help too.

I'm working on a tea swap and a mini Halloween swap and just got all my postcards in from the postcard swap and I signed up for TOKmas.

Could it be bi-polar?

Phew! I was out all day with Sandy, doing our Saturday stuff on Sunday. We had an enjoyable day. Found out Barnes & Noble sells a whole line of Dr. Who goodies. Not good for me to know! LOLOL!!!

Anyway I went downstairs a little while ago and Tony said he'd been looking for me earlier to see if I wanted to go to the San Gennaro festival today. Geez! And he's a completely different Tony than I heard last night. Weird.

We might go next Sunday. We'll see.

And my son left to go back to North Dakota today. He said he's coming back in two weeks.

A gorgeous day

I went to Naugatuck to Kayla and Anthony's combined birthday party. We had a nice time. Karla had a cannoli cake for Anthony, a regular birthday cake for Kayla and a cupcake for James for his promotion to white hat, whatever that is. Anthony is going to come back in two weeks too. I'm so glad.

Tony's being a complete asshole. The depression excuse doesn't work for me for either of them. They blame all their problems on the world and don't do a thing to help themselves. He was actually sitting there listening to all this bible stuff and how men should act -- seriously!!! only five minutes ago. And now he stormed out fucking this and fucking that because Rita didn't make supper. And yet there's a whole cooked pork loin in the fridge. What a jerk!

Almost autumn

The heat and humidity are gone after the torrential rain last night and a little today. The air feels wonderful and I'm imagining the smell of grapes. It has to be my imagination. So odd.

My boy will be going back to North Dakota on Sunday. I've only had glimpses of him. Tomorrow we'll have his birthday - Kayla's too - but I have no money for gifts. As long as I can pay bills, then it doesn't matter.

I am so wishing Allen was here.

Another cousin gone

Lisa called again tonight. Zia Angelina's son, Gigi (she said Gennarino but that's not his name), passed away. What is going on??? I know we're older but we're not all THAT old.

Court

So Rita and Tony and the tenant went to court today and the court gave her until midnight on the 30th to be out. So hopefully October me and Pino and Ruffio will be in. Of course there's no refrigerator and no hot water but at least my stuff will be in it's own place and Ruffie will be free to run around a whole apartment.

Today was really hot. It's 7:32 and still 84 degrees. But it's certainly bearable considering the glorious summer we've had except for the heat wave for that week or so.

Hair cut

I had Rita trim my hair. She took off an inch or so and layered it a little and it actually looks good. Her Blazer won't start and I still have stuff at the apartment -- I am NOT going there. Hopefully the Blazer will start and she can go there. Tony is useless now. I have no clue how the dryer is going to get out and over here or where it's going to go since he's stopped again.

Care of Magical Creatures

I just bought the second set of charms patterns from Tiny Owl Knits. I'm going to knit them all. They're tiny and they're fast and I love that there's a task associated with each one. So far I knit the unicorn horn and the Arcromantula. I need to find the skinny metal bracelets to put them on. If I do a garland, Ruffio will destroy it. LOL!!

Good day

I'm still avoiding going back to the apartment so Rita's going sometime this week to at least get the bins. I really, really don't want to go. Tony is being useless right now -- depression -- so I doubt he'll get the end stuff done. I have to figure out who I can get to help with the dryer and bikes.

But I did get to see my Anthony today. I met him and Karla down in front of the Elks and we went to Bar None for wings. I also brought him his gun and ammo so that's out of my hands now.

That's about it.

The Anthonys

My son is home -- I know I said that already but he is and I'm happy. I'll see him tomorrow. My son-in-law has a job at a cable tv call center and he starts work on Monday. Benefits and all. God is answering my prayers for financial freedom for my family. Yes, it means working and earning the money but it means having the money to live normally.

Uncle Dotsie's Karen is back from Salento and she says Zio Salvatore isn't allowed in his meat market anymore because he's got a disease that no one says what it is and that he looks pregnant. Obviously he has Hep C. I wonder if Daddy had lived long enough if he would have come down with it too?

Another day

Anthony is home -- well he's in Naugatuck and still won't come here. Nothing I can do about that. I will see him tomorrow after work sometime.

I went with Donna to ride along while she did some of her work and we went to Staples and then for pizza. Good thing I didn't take Rita at her word and wait for the chicken she was making for supper. It's 9:28 and she's still not home. LOL!

Carol doesn't call at all and didn't reply to my email today or my missed phone call. I miss them so much.

Life is pretty strange lately but it IS good no matter what.

Cosmic tonight

I didn't go to the apartment like I planned. I'll do all that on Saturday morning. I really don't want to face her. So it's off to Cosmic tonight. I hope we don't run to late because I'm totally exhausted for some reason!

Still not done

I still didn't go back and I don't know what to do about some stuff there but oh well -- will do it when I get the nerve. Luisa has my stomach in knots and I don't know why.

We had our first official Cultural Commission meeting tonight - down on the Green with a folding table and got a LOT accomplished.

AND most importantly for the moment - I found my work clothes. Geez!

A Luisa free day

Tony said Luisa said they're not showing the place until after Freddy paints so we don't have to rush. The mattresses are here but we still have to get stuff out of the basement and get that damned couch out.

Today I went to the laundromat and got gas and cat food and stuff. The rest of the day I just stayed here pretty much in my room.

Almost done

Tony went and got the mattress and I'm not sure what he left up there. There really was nothing left in the apartment except stuff for the dump. The dryer is still in the basement as are my bins and Anthony's tires but those can stay for a few more days. I'm so done with this.

I made us spare ribs and corn and Rita made rice and so we had a good supper.

I guess I didn't post when I got woken up at 2:30 this morning by a guy screaming and swearing outside. I went downstairs and Tony wasn't there. Then the guy started calling for Tony and I called Tony on his cell and left him a message. The guy was lying on the ground flipping drunk and yelling. THEN he came into the yard and was pounding on the door and I thought he was going to break in. That's when I called the cops. They got here in two minutes flat. Turns out it was Tony's friend, Jeff, the one that helped move stuff one of the days last week. Oh well -- I don't care who he was, I would have still called the cops!

Talked to my baby boy today. It's his 34th birthday. I can't believe it. I miss Allen. I miss the Allen who fathered my kids and loved me. I miss my parents and friends and our old lives. I miss my Carol and Anthony and Allen. But I will see my son by next weekend at least.