Still here still

I got up late -- around 10:30 and then did the post office thing and went to see Pino for a few minutes so I got to Lou's around 12:30. I stayed until five or six and then came home and ate.

Went back around seven and just got home a little while ago. She's still with us. Anthony can't go. I do understand. He's an awful lot like his father in this.

I'm going to go to sleep now and hopefully in the morning get a little cleaning/sorting done before going back up there. I don't know how much longer this can go on and I'm very upset that they don't even check her vitals. I know she had a DNR but how do they know where she's at if they only come in every 4 hours and give her meds and do nothing else? They came in once to check and see if she needed changing. That's it.

The palm of her hand is starting to look mottled and to me that means the end is near. When I ever turned Mommy's hand over when I was in the hospital with her and her palm was purple -- that's when the nurse told me to get Rita right back because it was going to be very soon. And it was. I am so nervous and keep checking Lou's hands.

Dear Lord, please take her home soon.