February 9

Apparently everything is back to normal. No apologies or anything - just like nothing ever happened. I can live with that. But that doesn't mean that I think they will stay even though they talk like they are. So I'm very grateful that I can afford my place by myself and that I can die alone there.

Tomorrow begins Lent and it's also Sammy's 20th birthday. Time flies too fast.

Ok. Lent. Can I do it? Fish (or no meat) tomorrow and on all Fridays. That's easy enough. Just have to remember. No in between snacks - I don't snack in between too often, but I will have to remember to have breakfast. Three meals a day. And, if at all possible, healthy food. We'll see if I even remember. I hope I do.