November 22

Carol honestly believes that Anthony and all of them hate her. They're going to go to Chris and Amber's for Thanksgiving and she said even if they had nowhere to go she would make up something so as not to go to theirs. She said she's never going to have holidays with them.

Why do I feel like she's repeatedly stabbing me in the heart?

This is wholely and completely in her head. If people -- anyone -- doesn't like her it's because of her attitude. I know Anthony loves her. You could see the hurt in his eyes when he says he'd love for them to go up his house and then says but I guess you won't, to Anthony 2.

I'm trying to not allow this to affect me. I don't want to sacrifice my health because of stress. My dying wish will be that she ends this and loves him. I know I won't die in peace any other way.

God help us all.