June 6

I am NOT going to let myself be down. Screw them all. Yvonne and I did the special olympics and will be going back tomorrow.

Susan had asked me yesterday if I wanted to go hiking up Sleeping Giant today. I told her I couldn't because of the special olympics and then afterwards I was going to the renn faire with Antonio. Then I see Antonio is fucking going hiking with her. So I sent him a PM and he said they'd be done by 10 a.m. and of course he was going to the faire. So today I call him at 11:30 when we are done. No answer to PM, phone or texted. I finally get hold of him when I'm home later and they're still at Sleeping Giant and why don't I go up. Fuck that. Supposedly we're going to faire tomorrow. If not, and if I don't go alone and give someone in line a ticket, I'm burning the fuckers and this will be the last time I do anything for anyone else but myself.